Full circle moments. I've been thinking a lot about them lately. I finally moved into my new apartment, a space that's entirely my own. No roommates. No pets. Just me, myself and I. I've only slept there four nights so far but I wake up in the morning and feel both a sense of pride and accomplishment as I think about where I was around this time last year and where I am now.
February 2019 marked the beginning stages to one of the biggest changes of my life and little did I know at the time that I was about to embark on a journey that would lead me deeper into myself. There was so much confusion, doubt and unease around this time. I remember waking up most days with a giant pit in my stomach, asking any being higher than myself to guide me, to offer clarity, insight and awareness into what my next steps should be.
Now, as I write this post, sitting on my couch in my beautiful new space, I look around at the walls brimmed with my chosen artwork, the bookshelves with my favorite reads, the plants I situated to garner the most sunlight, and the home I've created for myself. If you were to tell me last February that in just one year I'd experience the most growth of my life, learn to love myself more than I ever imagined, cultivated and harnessed creativity on a daily basis, and manifested a living space that reflects all of who I am, I wouldn't have believed you. I couldn't see past what was right in front of me.
We do this often, don't we? We only perceive what's visible to the eye - to what is directly standing before us. We mull in our own darkness and doubt and have trouble locating the light that's at the center of any blackout. We don't always lift our eyes to see the beautiful potential of what our lives can become, of what we can become, when we give into the love rather than the fear, the positivity rather than the doubt, and the strength of ourselves rather than the regrets of our past.
When you look closely though, you'll see that where you're standing now is a full circle moment from where you were just some time ago. When you look even closer, you'll realize that in just some time from now, another full circle moment will occur, one that you, yourself will have created.
Look at the growth you've already endured and think of how much more you will blossom if you simply allow yourself to bloom.