To my Beloved Fear,
How are you?
Are you still hiding in the shadows of my mind? Are you still lurking within the chambers of my heart?
My love, I hear you. I see you. I love you.
You don’t need to step forward into the light the moment I desire change. There’s no reason to rush toward center stage when I realize that I’m ready for something more.
I understand that you want to protect me. You believe by holding me still in what has always been that you’re keeping me safe. But haven’t we learned by now that we never really grow in spaces that are familiar? Aren’t we living proof that change is the only constant in this life, and to deny change is to disregard the very nature of our beings - the very essence of this life?
The truth is, I know I’m destined for grand and beautiful things. I know that it’s going to require hard work to get to where I want to be, but I’m willing and ready to become who I truly am. For in essence, I already am that which I desire to be.
Please stop visiting me and telling me that I don’t have what it takes to live my dream. Please stop putting me down the moment I make a mistake. Please stop pushing me toward comparing myself to others when I believe that I should be twenty steps ahead of where I am.
Can’t you see? I’ve already grown so much from where I used to be. I want to be grateful for where I am. I want to love who I am. I don’t want to disregard my own process.
When you seize my heart and mind, I feel like I’ll forever be standing where I am, with no exit sign in sight to a life that feels right for me. When you’re present, I worry that things will never change and that I’ll forever be on a loop of the same cycles, the same people, the same patterns, and the same habits that aren’t serving me.
I love you for your efforts in trying to protect me, but I don’t need you right now, and I lovingly set you free. Please know that I’ll always be okay, and I'll always be here for you, just as you are there for me. But for now, we can part ways, as I’m okay on my own.
I trust that we’ll find each other again, and when we do, we’ll work together to create beauty rather than mistrust, love rather than pain, and peace rather than chaos.
My beloved fear, I love you. I thank you. I honor you.
I love you.